11 Months

11 months!!

We are officially on the last month of the girls' first year!! I can hardly believe it. I am, of course, in complete denial that they will be turning one next month and wonder every day where the year went. I guess I just thought they would be babies for a little while longer. This time of year when I am getting anxious about returning to school reminds me so much of this time last year when I was anxious about the return to school and also anxious about the girls arriving. I am so glad I was able just to stay home for those few weeks before their arrival to rest up, keep them growing safely, and try and stay calm before the storm. I was so worried about getting them safely here that I couldn't dwell on what the future held and as a result so much of what has happened this year has been a total surprise and not something I had spent a lot of time premeditating, if that makes sense.  When Trace was little I used to daydream all the time about what life would look like with him and Michael in a year, in two years, in five years...what cute outfits I could dress them alike for Christmas cards and birthday parties, etc. And with the girls it really was a conscious decision to try and just take it one day at a time and in some ways I think that made the year go faster. 

I've been trying to plug away at the girls' scrapbooks to get them done by their first birthday (eek!) and it just pains me to see them so tiny. It's not a bad pain- but the kind that makes your heart hurt with longing as those days have gone by too quickly. At the time I thought these photos were pretty silly but now I'm glad I have a reminder of myself with them during this fleeting time period. 

One month, Brynn closest to camera. 

two months

So I figured we needed some updated photos with the babies and I to show how much they have grown in my lap. It is wild for me to see how big they have gotten and how much they like to show their personalities! 

Anna

Brynn 

These two are such a blessing and we can't wait to celebrate their 1st first birthday next month!